I'm not always very good at keeping secrets, so that is part of why there has been minimal writing on Flock and Feast this winter. Things that were too big not to mention where happening in my life, I just couldn't be trusted not to allude to it, or just plain bare my soul before it was time.
It's now time to share what has been going on. We're moving. It kind of came out of nowhere, we weren't even looking, and this opportunity for my husband to do what he loves and to have more time with us out of the hospital was offered to him.
It means that we are leaving the only home our kids have really known, a church we love, and dreams that aren't yet fulfilled which is all really hard!
Up ahead is adventure. It isn't the kind of adventure that I would pick for myself. I'd choose a new country, an amazing city, an exotic place where people have never heard the gospel, not a small midwestern town, but that probably makes it all the more adventurous. If I'm honest it gives me all the itchy uncomfortableness of a scratchy wool sweater. It's part of how I know it's going to be an adventure.
As we go through our house and get it ready to find it's next owners, we've been asking all those really hard questions about what fills us up, and what gifts and skills we have that we want to make more space for; what we dream of for our kids, and what we want to be known for as a family; how we should best spend our time and our money, and what we want to quit as we get the chance to start over. There are crazy dreams about a small farm, or a quaint old home, a subdivision where our kids can play with the neighbors kids all afternoon, or even an Airstream trailer as we build a new house. It is both exciting and terrifying.
The best part of this is that it has brought me closer to my husband as we take on this new adventure together, and it has brought me to my knees in prayer nearly every day. As I end my 30's and think about how I hope my life will look in a few decades I hope that these are two benchmarks of my life; prayer and a deep love for Jon. It makes me feel like I'm headed in the right direction.
There will be more to tell in the coming weeks. It's nice to be back. Oh, and Rochester, MN, here we come.